Move Along, Move Forward

When I was in high school, I took an art class. I remember coming in the early morning at 8 am. One my way to class, I could also hear the schoolโ€™s band tuning their instruments. I canโ€™t forget the smell of the morning and the sound of the band. I didnโ€™t know how to draw. As the semester went by, I began to draw more and more, obviously, and I even amazed myself at timesโ€”impressed with how far Iโ€™ve come. ย By the end of the term, I decided that I wanted to be an artist. I felt a bit insecure though because there were other students with so much more talented.

Most call them โ€œnaturally gifted.โ€ Of course, I was not naturally gifted. I had to draw a lot and tons a lot of mistakes. I decided to buy my teacher a small present for the last class. But I ended up not giving her the present. I wanted to talk to her, but she was busy with one of her favorites students convincing him to apply to art college because well, he had talent. I waited around a bit. She was always polite to me throughout and very helpful. Nonetheless, on that last day of class, she didnโ€™t even glance at me or at least I donโ€™t think she did. Most likely she had a moral duty to convince the talented man not to waste his time. So, I walked away with the present.

Sometimes the silence of a person speaks louder, or when someone ignores you tooโ€”much like my high school professor. She probably didnโ€™t mean any harm of course. But thatโ€™s how most people are, they want to focus on those they believe have natural talent and people who impressed them according to their perceptionโ€”itโ€™s easier right? It makes sense. ย No harm there. However, the harm does occur when we ignore others who do not meet our expectations of talent or intelligence. Most of the time people, well sometimes, they donโ€™t say, โ€œlook, you suck.โ€ Itโ€™s not direct. Itโ€™s a subconscious act because the person does not do it on purposeโ€”hopefully. But the student, who is not as talented, walks away ignored and gives up. Because thatโ€™s what I did when I was in high school, I gave up on that dream.

Actions do speak louder than words. Now, many years later, I am an aspiring writer working on ย writing projects, and I am working on my Masterโ€™s in English. I have had a busy year with some promising positive doors openings, and Iโ€™ve encountered failure. It has mostly been good until about a month ago. You know, life simply happens, and we have to work around it. One of the main concepts I learned during my Summer class Literary Pedagogy was GRITโ€”it was part of a research project. I wrote a blog about it too. Grit in its basic definition according to Angela Lee Duckworth defines perseverance. Talent alone does not guarantee success. Talent and IQ are both wonderful, as Duckworth puts it. We all want to obtain more talent and more IQ. But thatโ€™s still not the answer to success. In her research of many years, she realized GRIT helps with success.

Iโ€™ve been ignored, much like what happened to me in high school, and I have also been told I am not good enough numerous times throughout my life. But Iโ€™m in my thirties now, and those things do not affect me anymore. I simply digest them in my mind and move forward with my life. I try to take in constructive criticism because feedback is amazing, especially from those with experience. Negative criticism, I use it as fuel to keep driving toward my goals. Itโ€™s also a great idea, sometimes, to shut out voices. Iโ€™ve had SO much information from professionals, writers, peers, things I read on my own so on and so forth that I feel my writing looks like Frankensteinโ€™s monster. I look at it, and itโ€™s like, โ€œEw what the heck is this.โ€ Because I need to find my own voice. I need to embrace my culture. I need to embrace my worldview, and part of that worldview is that I am a weird person.

Itโ€™s also a great idea, sometimes, to shut out voices. Iโ€™ve had SO much information from professionals, writers, peers, things I read on my own so on and so forth that I feel my writing looks like Frankensteinโ€™s monster. I look at it, and itโ€™s like, โ€œEw what the heck is this.โ€ Because I need to find my own voice. I need to embrace my culture. I need to embrace my worldview, and part of that worldview is that I am a weird person posing as a normal one.

I donโ€™t like writing normal things. I like writing weird things because I live on this earth full of earthly and daily mundane things that I thinkโ€ฆwhy would I want to write about that? Not that thereโ€™s anything wrong with that because some people write about our normal life so masterfully. But thatโ€™s not me. And I donโ€™t have that talent. I write weird stuff.

Have you been told youโ€™re not talented enough? Or ignored? Embrace GRIT and Move along!

Also, I took an art class in college once more. I did it for fun and for electives. Still, because of my high school experience, I felt nervous. I had to tell myself, โ€œitโ€™s okay. Itโ€™s for fun. Itโ€™s just for electives.โ€ Makes me laugh to think about it today, honestlyโ€”worried about a fun class. Anyway, here is a picture of one my art projects. I am not an artist. So this is a beginner’s art project. Also, I pasted the link to Duckworth’s Grit presentation. Cheers!

 

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This painting is about 10 years old.

 

 

ยฉAna P. Rose & Anaprose 2017.

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5 thoughts on “Move Along, Move Forward

    1. Isn’t it. Seeing this video put a lot of things in perspective for me. And I love hearing, as I mentioned, about ppl with Grit. It’s motivating & inspirational. And thank you! ๐Ÿ™‚

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